Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Time is Flying!

Wow!  It is already almost Halloween!  I am traveling this week for work at the biggest tradeshow of the year.  I can't believe how quickly this year has gone by!  I don't feel like anything drastic has happened, but I think with the holidays fast approaching it just feels like the year is already almost over.  The weather was pretty odd this year which made last winter run right into summer and when summer ended it was pretty abrupt.  Now it is fall going on winter and I just want things to slow down, but soon the snow will be falling and we will be putting up Chistmas trees.  Our big fall excitement was saying good bye to our 1997 Monte Carlo with over 180,000 miles and saying hello to a 2008 Ford Focus with under 40,000 miles!

That and welcoming a new sister-in-law into the family!  We had fun at the wedding!

So that is all for now! 


Tuesday, October 4, 2011

More Chances for Opportunity or Disappoinment?

Hello there readers!  Today I am fighting with myself because yet another month has come and gone with no sign of baby.  In fact this month my "thing" (I no longer can handle calling it my "friend") showed up four days earlier than last month.  This comes as good news and bad news.  The fact that I used to have between a 35-36 day cycle and now it is more like 30-32, but this month was the exception at 28 days.  That is like...woah...normal!  "Glass half full" says more opportunities to get pregnant, "glass half empty" tells me more sadness and disappointment.  This month marks the two year anniversary of "trying" with no success.

The math says at 28 days that gives us 13 "opportunities" per year while 36 days is more like 10.  At this rate though it feels like just 3 more times per year to be really bummed out.  I can't say 100% why this month was so short, but I did begin using the fertility DVD "Restoring Fertility" this month and based on the reviews, others have said it helps keep your cycle regular.  The month is split up into four sections that follow your cycle very closely.  This not only helps you stay in tune with your body, but also sets your mind with the right attitude at the appropriate time of the month.  The DVD calls this setting your intention. I struggle, I feel the disappointment and that allows me to mourn the loss of the baby I never had last month and look forward to the opportunity that next month brings.  I realized there is no getting around the rollercoaster infertility brings.  There is always next month.