Monday, April 29, 2013

9 Weeks

Wow!  I am 9 weeks.  I'm not going to go into all the, "my baby is the size of a..." but I am going to tell you I am starting to feel better.  Now whether it was the weather placebo effect, or my body actually just starting to adjust to this pregnancy I don't really care either way.  The main thing is I'm not constantly feeling sick or constantly feeling tired.  Now don't get me wrong I still feel these things, but I also get hours of relief and that is just what I needed.  (I don't remember if I mentioned this, but my doctor put me on an anti-nausea called Zofran, if you haven't heard of it, write it down and ask for it.  It is a life saver.)

I have been able to get out and do a lot of walking and I love it.  I'm not really up for jogging or running since my rumpus is really bruised yet from the PIO so any little jiggle has me yelling ouch!  That is coming to an end though soon too!  Actually only 14 - 1/2 more days worth!  2 weeks!  Question for those who have done PIO - parts of my butt cheek are completely numb, does that go away?

My fitted clothes are getting tight!  I'm not showing per say, but if I was to wear a fitted shirt one would think, oh my has Julie been packing on the pounds.  I have been staying off the scale so I have no idea yet how many pounds I have gained.

Another milestone: I went to my first baby shower in a long time!!  It was amazing to be able to go and not think twice about it.  Even more importantly I got to see good friends who I haven't seen in awhile.  A quick slap of realization hit me when we were saying our farewells and discussing our next meeting and my friend said, OH we will hopefully see you in later December and I can see your bump.  I kind of smiled, but then the wheels got turning and I remembered, holy crap, I will have a baby by then.  My friends all laughed at me as they saw my facial expressions change to sort of a shock! 

Anyways, things are starting to feel much better and I guess I am looking forward to looking a little more "pregnant" and not just chubby.


Monday, April 22, 2013

8 Weeks & Graduation to OB

I made my appointment with the OB!!  It feels good, but scary!  Am I ready for this?  I've been having a lot of feelings that I am coping with being newly pregnant and still harboring all the pain of infertility.  I think I am struggling because I have not been feeling well lately.  I am very nauseas even on the medication which actually has helped, but I am still very queasy and TIRED.  I KNOW |I KNOW this is normal for the first trimester, but what isn't normal is going through 3 1/2 years of infertility to get here and so I think I am just feeling worn out.  So to talk to anybody who hasn't been through infertility and then gotten pregnant I keep hearing...this is what you wanted, or this is what being pregnant is like.  Yes, I know this, but I am still trying to recover from IVF and all the emotional drain of the past years while dealing with the new pregnancy symptoms.

I hate to sound ungrateful because you better believe I am so excited and happy and wouldn't change my situation for anything, but at the same time I think dealing with a little residual depression from IF.  I have one more month of PIO shots and estrogen and at that point I will be 12 weeks when I hear nausea tends to let up.  I am looking forward to it!  In the meantime, I am going to work on giving myself a break and trying not to be so hard on myself when I need to sleep instead of cleaning or feeling down about lack of exercise because I feel sick.


Monday, April 15, 2013

7 Weeks - Update

We are having ONE healthy BABY!!! Measuring 7 weeks 2 days and HB: 138!

 My heart is singing for joy!  Thank you again for all the support and prayers.  We feel extremely blessed!


Sunday, April 14, 2013

6 Weeks, 6 Days

Ahhhhh...we are so close.  Tomorrow is another big day, ultrasound day!  Nausea has kicked in full gear and continues to be on and off all day.  It really hits me when I start to feel hungry or about 1/2 an hour after I eat.  You know what the leaves?  Me mostly feeling good when I am eating which could be a problem.  I am definitely noticing a change in the distribution in the weight of my body.  Mainly my boobs and my belly.  That isn't real surprising I guess.  I really haven't gained much weight though which I guess is good I'm just getting larger in those areas.  Still doing my 2x daily shots.  We had a make a makeshift "sharps" container:

Thank you Folders.  Last week I spent all week in Des Moine training for work and I am off and running this week.  I have a few appointments set up and I am extremely nervous and excited.  I just hope I don't puke on anyone.  I plan to ask my doctor if there is something I can take to reduce the nausea.

A huge thank you to my sister-in-law who has passed along a large tote of maternity clothes.  It will save me a ton of money and I am so thankful!!  I also tried my first attempt at making some of my own maternity clothing.  I got a pattern at the Sewing Expo last weekend and made it a bit bigger and I think it will be perfect:
You can also see I have started wearing Sea Bands which are supposed to help with nausea.  I'm not 100% sure how effective they are, but they can't hurt.  I have a few other ideas in mind for other maternity clothing projects!  I may not be able to update tomorrow since we want to share with our families, but I should have the results up this week of our ultrasound!


Monday, April 8, 2013

6 Weeks

What a whirlwind the past week has been!  I have been enjoying the craziness of it all because it has been all good things.  So last week, I started the new job and I am loving it.  It is hectic and busy and I am going to have to work really hard, but I am excited for the new challenge.  This week I am in Des Moine, IA doing more training with our other sales rep and then next week I am off on my own! 

Next week also brings....our first ultrasound.  Let me tell you I have been going through so many ups and downs, "I'm soooo pregnant"..."OH NO..I don't feel pregnant!" "Wait, yes I do"...and on and on.  I had my first real bout of nausea this weekend I was cleaning out the Mr.'s car to get ready for the weekend and he had some cherry cough drops that had fallen out of the box and I had to scrape them off the carpet.  The smell was strong and horrible and then...just when I thought I had gotten through it I puked.  It wasn't a strong hard puke, but just a blip and then it was gone and I felt better. 

My PIO shots...another story.  I finally was able to order new oil, but I won't get it until Thursday.  I am so broken out and itchy still, it is miserable.  HOWEVER, IMPORTANT INFO TO FOLLOW >>>>>>>> I have been paying full price for my bottles of PIO which came to about $200 for 4 bottles, and I have gotten two orders.  When I went to order the new stuff because it was a different oil the pharmacy said...OH they will cover this one.  You owe $8.  WHAT THE FFFFFF!!!!  Nobody had mentioned that might be a possiblity before.  So I have paid $400 for PIO that has made me feel horrible and itchy and I could have only paid $16 so far.  Make sure to look into this for yourself.  Nobody will tell you this kind of stuff.  I learned the hard way.  PIO comes in different kinds of oils, and other forms (vaginal inserts) and what you need to double check is that if your DR prescribes one type and it is not covered (even down to the type of oil) have them check all the different options.  The good news is that I have learned to do them myself because I knew I would be alone this week and have to figure it out.  It hasn't been as bad as I imagined it would be. 

That is about all from me.  I am thankful to be busy this week because I am losing my mind waiting for this ultrasound.  It can't come soon enough.


Tuesday, April 2, 2013

5 Weeks 1 Day

Hello Everyone!

Ahh have things been hectic.  As you know I started my new job which is going really well.  It is definitely going to be an adjustment, but a very welcome change!  Easter was great of course.  I spent the day with my family, ate too much and of course took numerous naps.

I'm losing my mind waiting for my 7 week ultrasound, but thankfully have a lot going on to keep myself busy until then.  This week I will be busy training and getting settled for work and this weekend I will be attending the sewing expo!  Then next week I will travel for more training and then bam!! It will be 7 weeks.  I go in phases of not feeling pregnant at all to feeling really pregnant.  For instance, I just did the boob check, (you know, checking for tenderness) and they didn't feel sore at all and then all of a sudden wait a minute....YES they do hurt.

I have been really miserable since I had a skin reaction to the PIO.  I have a terrible itchy rash in addition to the bruising and pain.  It is really horrible.  I have a new prescription to try a different type of oil and see if that helps.  I still plan on using what I have already bought since it is so freakin expensive.

I'm going to end this blog with a "What the HELL is wrong with people."  Which you may know what I am talking about if you saw my facebook post.  I took my dog Lady out to the park tonight to burn off her endless energy and there was 2 other people there.  So I let her run around normally off her leash because it is a pain to keep her on it since she just really wants to RUN.  So I get started on my walk and one of the 2 people at the park yells at me...YOU know you HAVE to have your dog on a leash.  I continued to walk past and she yells, I'm going to get your license plate and report you to the county.  Are you kidding me.  That is all you have better to do on this wonderful evening is sit at the park and yell at people for trying to get out and exercise along with their dogs?  I wanted to yell, you know what b****...I am pregnant, super hopped up on hormones and this is the only relaxation I have before I have to go home and shove a 2 inch needle in my ass.  I've had a long day and I brought my dog to this park because I knew there wouldn't be a lot of people here so you can either shut your f'ing mouth and leave us alone or I am going to take you and your stupid camera and throw you in the swamp.  How do you like me now?

Hmmmmm...Dick mentioned I have been crabbier than usual.  LOL!


WANTED CRIMINAL: Description 20lbs, white with red spots, wanted for being seen at the almost empty park off her leash disturbing the peace according to one park attendee, who states: "I yelled at the owner that her dog need to be on a leash" and then after the owner ignored me, shouted "I'm going to write down your license plate and contact the country"... if you see this little red and white pup and feel threatened as this ridiculous lady obviously did please contact 1-800-getafnlife