Thursday, July 23, 2015

I need to stop beating myself up

So here it is... My post about my post baby body.  I am going to be honest I gained over 50 pounds with each of my kids.  Just as I had lost the 55 pounds I gained the first time around I found myself pregnant again.  Last time I found motivation quickly to run and eat healthy and lose weight quickly.  This time I dropped 30 pounds in the first week and here I am stuck with 20 extra pounds.  I have no motivation to run or eat healthy.  I need to remind myself it has only been over 10 weeks ... Seriously what this body has done in less than 2 years is completely amazing.  I need to remember that I am providing the source of food for my little girl and that I am going to eat more than normal and that's okay.  I need to remember that I'm not 22 anymore, I'm 31 and these things take time.  I need to remember that my children and husband love me for who I am and they don't care my tummy isn't flat, my hips have gotten wide and curvy and the scar from my c-section allows my tummy to spill over.  I will eventually lose the weight, I will continue to regain my fitness and I will feel good about my body again.  In the meantime I am going to love this body.


Saturday, July 18, 2015

Remembering My Amazing Dad

Remember I was going to get another tattoo in memorial of my Dad?  Then this happened instead and I had my Leela girl instead!!  Well I finally found a free moment and came through with my new tattoo!

So as stated I wanted to do something to connect my two current tattoos in a memorial to my Dad.  Here is what I have to work with.

After a few different ideas I came up with forget-me-nots for a few different reasons...

1.  They are absolutely beautiful 
2.   The name, totally perfect
3.   The holy shit how perfect...they are the Alaskan state flower

Those of you who didn't know my Dad, he loved Alaska!  In his 20's he moved up there and worked on the Alaskan pipeline back in the 70's, and so as kids instead of bedtime stories we would hear stories about when Dad lived in Alaska.  It was awesome!

In October of 2013 he passed away and ever since then I've been missing him and his stories.  Anyways I won't make you wait any longer:

Friday, July 10, 2015

2 months with stats

My little toots is 2 months old already!  She is just over 12 pounds and 23".  Nothing crazy but very healthy.  She can still wearing 0-3 but moving right along into 3-6.  Just 3 weeks of leave left and today more than ever I thought to myself well going back to work will be okay!

She sleeps usually 8-9pm through anywhere between 1-3am depends on the night and then usually to 5-6am.  Pretty good stretches!  We are really in the swing of things and have a somewhat nice routine of naps and eating during the day.  Most days we get lucky with at least one or two big naps 2-3 hours and Richie and I wonder around outside picking berries, playing in the sand box or water table.  I have a video monitor to keep an eye on Leela.

I have to admit though I am tired!!! That deep down tired that no amount of naps can cure and who am I kidding I don't get naps!  2 kids is different because there is no sleep when the baby sleeps because you are chasing around a toddler.  A very busy active toddler who like to get into things!  Speaking of sleep I need to get to sleep!!!  That's all for now!

Wednesday, July 1, 2015

Big Brother...little Sister

I can't deny I was excited when I found out we were having a girl. I've always had hoped to have one of each a boy and a girl.  I have always felt lucky to have brothers and I hope Leela feels the same way.

Richie and Leela have settled in nicely to the roles of big brother and little sister.  Richie really wants to help with his little sister but hasn't quite figured out the word gentle.  So I spend a lot of my day trying to keep him occupied and keep her happy.  Each day is different based on how well everyone has slept and everyone's temperament for the day.  I do try to include some time where he can be near her and we can practice being gentle.  Sadly most of the time this leads to Richie ending up in time out.

Finding things to keep a toddler occupied during the day is exhausting.  Everything is really interesting for about five minutes and then he is ready to be onto the next thing.  That is fine when I am not occupied by feeding the baby or it is something he finds to do inside while the baby is awake.  Generally whenever she falls asleep we try to sneak outside and keep an ion her with our video baby camera.  The latest and greatest outdoor activity is his new sandbox.  As I figured it was cool for about five minutes.  Richie loves going into the garden with me and helping pull weeds and loves it when I hand him a vegetable or fruit to eat.  Right now it is raspberries and we are both loving it.

Leela has the started developing her personality.  She still spends most of her time sleeping but is having longer periods of awakeness and smiling.  She spits up a lot more frequently than Richie ever did and we are trying to find the culprit.  The past few days I have been trying to cut out dairy to see if that will help however I am afraid that my letdown is just too strong and that has been causing her to spit up.  She doesn't seem nearly as bad when she drinks out of a bottle.  I am hoping she just grows out of that because she will be able to handle the letdown better as she gets older.

I have just about four weeks left of maternity leave and I'm really enjoying my time.  I love being out in the country and just love my new house.  We still have a houseful including my mom and brother but my mom should be moving to her new house in September.

Well I better get to bed she will be awake soon to eat!