One thing I have learned in my advertising sales career is that even though you get a lot of rejections, those rejections don't always mean no forever. Most of the time it is more like, NO (not right now), NO (I'm too busy to talk), NO (until I get fired and replaced by someone who will say yes...this is my favorite) or NO (I'm not even the right person to be talking to in the first place.)
With this thought I can compare them to my problems with infertility. Dealing with the emotions of rejection each month is very much like being told NO on a sales call. Most of the time with a sales call you hang up, get over it and make the next phone call, but take what you learned from the previous and apply it to the next. Each NO is one step closer to the next yes. You can't really control what the person on the other line is going to say much like you can't control when you body decides to get pregnant.
Okay...where am I going with this? Over the past 23 months I have learned a lot of things that do not work for me. I am still in the middle of my 3rd and final month on Letrozole and finally realized that the added stress of the drug messing with my hormones is not for me. Not only has it not worked up to this point, but in my opinion has made dealing with everything more difficult. My husband refers to it as the hormone rollercoaster and it has made me do and say some pretty crazy things that I wouldn't normally and for the most part I haven't felt like Julie the past 3 months. While I am still in this 100% and my feelings haven't changed about what I want, I feel like I need to go about my "treatment" differently. I have my check-in with the doctor next week and will hopefully be able to discuss some alternative treatments.
In addition I am going to add "Restoring Fertility" which is a Yoga Infertility DVD to my routine.
Your prayers, luck, wishes, good juju are always welcome, until next time "Namaste".
Monday as I was finishing my cup of coffee and popping my 2nd can of Diet Coke I began to think. Woah..wait a minute here...why am I drinking so much caffeine. Since I work in an office all day it is pretty common to keep something at hand to sip on and lately it has been all things caffeinated: Diet Coke, Coffee and Tea.
Yesterday I decided to "cut back" and see what happened so I brought in a large glass to fill with water to keep at my desk and everything went pretty well. I was a bit more tired than usual. Today...BAM...like I slammed my head into a brick wall. I have a massive headache.
I can't help but think I did this to myself and now I should pay the consequences. I am addicted to caffeine!
I don't think I will try to cut it out completely as this was just kind of an experiment to see if I was really needing the caffeine or drinking it just because. So what do you think? Is caffeine a harmful addictive drug or just something to wake you up in the morning and keep you going through the day?
Ahhhhh....it is Suhrfest weekend once again. A time to relax, kick back (drink a beer or two) and spend time with family & friends. Well mostly all now family. There has been skydiving, t-shirts, running and biking, lots of campfireds, bean bags and one year we even went canoeing (but we don't talk about that anymore).
This year I look forward to getting my mind off a few things and really just getting away to enjoy some time with Dicky! I'm sure there will be pictures to come!
PS. I ended up buying the NOOK!!! and I LOVE IT!
UPDATE: Here is our Suhrfest 2011 Family Portrait!!!
Good times were definitely had by all. Including Bosko and Lady!