Friday, July 29, 2011

e-Reader or Paperback

In the spirit of my NEW link  Reading (CHECK IT OUT!) I thought I would toss around the idea of an e-reader.  (Also notice the blogs navigation has moved over to the right hand side.) 

Anyway...show of hands (likes, comments, ect) are you happy with your e-reader?  Do you recommend black and white, color, nook, kindle, just getting an ipad or ipad 2..whatever?  How easy is it to get new books?  Do I just hop on wireless, do I have to connect it to a computer? 

OR...should I just stick to my system of borrowing paperbacks from friends or ordering them on amazon.com?

Julie

Thursday, July 28, 2011

Decisions...decisions

Warning...this post may contain information that could be considered "TMI"

I am back on the topic of infertility and the time is coming again where I will find out if I need to start buying diapers or decide how to continue on my "treatment" if thats what you want to call it.  I hate that word because it almost makes me feel as though there is something wrong with me or I am not quite right.  August will be my 3rd month of Letrozole and my next doctors visit is August 31st.  I had hoped that I wouldn't need to make a decision like this since the doctor assured me in most cases this is all it usually takes.  I still hope she is right, but maybe I am not usual.

The next step we spoke about at my first doctors appointment was to do IUI.  I am still not sure how I feel about that.  It seems so unnatural.  I guess the feeling of not being in control of your body is unnatural.

I am considering trying a more wholistic treatment before I got the IUI route, acupuncture, massage, vitamins...I guess I am just trying to be proactive instead of reactive.  I am too much of an emotional mess to make these kind of decisions when the time comes to make them. I have come to the point where it is very hard to stay positive because if the test doesn't have to be (+) I don't either anymore.  I guess maybe it just makes the disappointment easier.

Anways, these are many of the things that are stirring around in my mind as I try to get through each day preparing myself emotionally for another month of disappointment.  Please feel free to leave "constructive" comments.  I don't need to hear anything more about being patient, it will happen when it is right, reminding me I am still young, or telling me to just relax..I did that the first 22 months and look how well that worked out.

I'm looking more for types of herbal treatments, acupunturists in the area or other alternatives.  Feel free to remain anonymous or email me instead at julie.goss@hotmail.com .

Julie

Monday, July 25, 2011

Recharged and Ready

Hello all!

After feeling quite down last week, (refer to previous post http://juliesjunkdrawer.blogspot.com/2011/07/you-cant-always-have-what-you-wantright.html) I had quite the adventurous weekend and put a lot of miles on my Equinox!  The weekend started (early because I took Friday off) with a visitor from PA!  My college roommate Mrs. Katie "Po Po" Spangs came to visit Beka and I in little ole Fortkinson!

 Friday morning it was off to Fennimore to visit my brother and sister-in-law and Baby Noah!  I got to spend a few hours baby sitting, and had a great time going to lunch and Grab-a-cone (https://www.facebook.com/pages/Grab-A-Cone/120925807931647).  Saturday it was off to Sauk City to spend some time with a long time friend (21 years to be exact) Melissa and make our annual trip on Sunday to Noah's Ark in the Dells.  I guess that pretty much covers most of Southern Wisconsin.

It was nice to just get up and get away for the weekend and spend time with great friends and family!  I discovered a renewed excitement for cooking having been treated to some awesome food the past couple of days.  Melissa and I have decided to start a "Dish of the Month" where we will decide on a recipe, cook it for dinner during some point in the month for our hubbies.  Review the dish and give eachother feedback and store the recipe in our cookbooks.  I will make sure to post pictures to my cooking link (http://juliesjunkdrawer.blogspot.com/p/cooking.html).  Anyone is welcome to join by adding yourself to our facebook group: https://www.facebook.com/groups/222957291082088?ap=1

Happy Monday!

Julie

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

You can't always have what you want...right when you want it.

Hello everyone!

I know it has been awhile, but as usual summer has started sucking up all my free time and this heat...well  99 degrees out as we "speak" (read...write...whatever!?) is making everything difficult.  Its like when everything shuts down in Florida when it snows, I think everything should shut down in Wisconsin when the temp. goes above 90 degrees.

Anyways the weather is totally irrelevant to this blog post.  I may just be procrastinating because this is a very difficult blog post, but I finally decided I wanted to write about it.  Well here goes:

What the heck is this Julie?  This room to me represents a dream, a wish, a want.  This is the "spare" bedroom in my house.  What do I mean? 

Many of you do not know that we have been trying to start a family now for the past two years and so far unsuccessfully.  I have been through a lot of frustration and disappointment over this and also learned a lot since my first "check up" with the doctor on May 20th this year to find out ...what the heck is wrong with me that something so natural, so normal has become so difficult
(sad, frustrating, terrible, upsetting...).

What I learned though since that doctors appointment is that I am not alone!

 Almost 1 out of 6-7 people have problems with fertility. 

It is such a private topic (even though I am now blabbing it to the entire web) but it is actually very common!  There is entire communities on the internet and support groups, I am pretty sure there is even an entire language for us "infertiles".  (http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/general-infertility/704976-list-infertility-acronyms.html)

The result of the doctors appointment was that we are two very healthy people and we fall somewhere into the mystery category that the "blame" (can't think of a better word for this) doesn't fall on either of our shoulders.  However, they put me on a medication called letrozole to help things along.

 Back to the photograph of the spare bedroom...I spend a lot of time lost in thought and hope that someday it might become a nursery.  Until then I will keep taking my perscribed medication (Letrozole) aka crazy pills (they make me very moody) and keep you updated with any progress/news.

Please feel free to ask me questions or share your own story and check back often!

Julie

PS.  Hopefully this weekend some pictures to come on a few garden/landscaping projects.