Monday, May 20, 2013

12 Weeks

I am nearing the end of my first trimester!  Can you believe it?  Different websites state different times being the actual beginning but generally I have read between 13-14 weeks is the beginning of the second trimester.  For the first time this morning I have begun to realize this pregnancy is going to go much faster than first anticipated.  That is really exciting and really scary.  There is so much to do!!  My OB asked if I had picked out a pediatrician...ummmm haven't even thought about it.  In fact up until this point I have been really worried about something going wrong.  Is that something IF creates or is that normal??  This intense barrier of believing that we can never get to the other side?  That the other shoe is going to drop and we will wake up and find this has all been a dream? 

The OB appointment and ultrasound really has helped me to feel that this is real and that things will work out for us this time!  Can I really start to let my guard down a little bit and realize that our dream is coming true?   We have opted to not do the downs testing.  I just feel that would create a worry that really there is nothing we can do about.  So that was the end of that.  We aren't doing it.

We don't have the next OB appointment for another month.  I don't mind.  I have been feeling pretty good.  In fact, last night I got out golfing with the Mr. and some friends.  We had a great time and look forward to doing more golfing this summer.  This upcoming weekend we have plans to go up north for the holiday weekend!  Ahhhhh...I need to keep reminding myself to relax and enjoy this!


Updated Photo:


Hahaha! Just kidding I am wearing the "fake" bump under my shirt at Motherhood Maternity trying on new shorts :)

Here is the real picture:



Nikki Kueffer said...

It is normal to worry but IF does add to it. I found it much easier to believe I was pregnant and that things would turn out with my first pregnancy. This time around with everything we've gone through the past few years it's been harder to believe it actually finally happened, but I will say being able to feel baby moving the last few weeks has helped. We also have our big ultrasound next week and I know that will help as well. With my first pregnancy I just had to open myself up, let myself be in love with the baby no matter the outcome. I really went with the mantra "It's better to have loved and lost..." But thankfully we have a precocious little boy to show for that one so I'm trying to get more into that mindset this time, it's hard after the mc we had two years ago but I know I'll get there. And you will too <3

Nikki Kueffer said...

Have to say you look pretty cute with that fake bump ;)